Back and ready to blog again!

So it's been a while.... Sorry about that...I guess we've just been busy doing life! We still have our sweet boy! He turned 11 months old today! We don't know what our future with Baby J holds because there are no gurantees in foster care and to be completely transparent with you all this is a lot harder than I thought it would be. A lot of people would say "you were warned this would be hard" or "reunification is the goal with fostering" you want to know what I say to that ? " blah, blah, blah...shut it" Being told how hard something is is not the same as living it and as far as reunification goes...I get that but sometimes that's not the best option and unfortunately I can't share why I feel that way. The not knowing the future is hard but loving our boy is not! It's as easy as breathing! He has brought so much joy to our lives and each day with him is a new adventure! I continue to praise my God for putting him in our lives and I continue to work at trusting His plan! I plan to start blogging more often and update you on how life with J is!

Great Things

We received the call last Thursday!! We now have the most precious baby boy in the world with us!! Unfortunately I can't give any details out, but I now can wholeheartedly say that God's plan is so much better than mine!! We give him all the glory and will continue to praise him for this new amazing season in our lives!! We are over the moon happy! Please continue to pray for us!

Its a new year...2015

2015 GOALS :

1. Lose 50lbs......I have always gained weight easily mostly because I am an emotional eater. All kinds of emotions...happy, sad, stressed...I enjoy food and don't enjoy exercise. The most exercise I've been getting lately is my pointer finger swiping the pages on my kindle ;)

2. Essie nail polish......I'm not going to state that I will not buy any because that's just setting myself up for failure. I'm going to try to limit my purchases. Last count I own 15 bottles. Hello, my name is Ashley and I am addicted to Essie nail polish.

3. Drink more water.....on average I MAY drink 16 ounces of fluid a day. I don't intend for this to happen it's just not something I think about.

4. Extending Grace....I will probably always need to work on this and I feel that for the most part it's not hard for me to be forgiving and extending of grace to others.(most part, not all parts)  It's myself that I am so hard on. This past Wednesday it hit me just how hard. I was in the car line at Starbucks and I had allowed my mind to think about how hurt I was about something and the tears just came, uncontrollable tears. Immediately I started to pray. I prayed that God would take these feelings always and that He would forgive me for allowing myself to be this upset in the first place. Then it hit me ....why did I just pray that? The tone of my prayer was like I had just committed some horrible act. When reality all that I did was allow myself to feel my emotions rather than bury them. Which by the way is not very healthy but one step at a time... my point in all this rambling is that God loves us and I don't believe that He would want me to think that my feeling hurt was wrong in some way. So I will continue to go to Him in prayer but I am going to try to give myself a little grace along the way.

What are some of your goals for 2015?




*We are still patiently (Ha!) waiting on the phone call! Keep us in your prayers!